John de Ruiter Podcast
John de Ruiter is a Canadian author and spiritual leader. He holds weekly meetings from his home base in Edmonton, Alberta, where he established the College of Integrated Philosophy in 2006. John has been offering seminars online and in Alberta since 2020, resulting in conversations with people all over the world. As an innovative voice for spiritual evolution, John de Ruiter teaches that life's meaning can be known and lived through "core-splitting honesty," a concept he discovered in his teens after a profound awakening to foundational levels of existence. Ever since, John’s life and teaching have been informed by that direct knowing. His desire to communicate these ideas led to two books, “The Intelligence of Love: Manifesting Your Being in This World” and “Unveiling Reality.” John’s teachings focus on a willingness to let go of your ego and desires: He draws a distinction between your self and your soul, as well as your mind and your being. When teaching a group, John prefers to interact with audience members one-on-one, rather than addressing a whole crowd. This method results in fascinating and intimate dialogues. Find more information about him at
Pardes Hana, Israel Meeting - May 2, 2012 Evening. 
The questioner had an experience where the structure of herself dissolved and everything was love. But when the experience dissipated, old structures returned. John explains that the experience is a beloved messenger. Instead of wanting the messenger to return, we can abide in the message it brings. When the knowing in the experience is enough, we become the same as the message. 
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